No one knows that I almost didn't make it to this year. No one knows that I harmed myself and was only keeping myself alive so that no one would have to miss me I'm better buy I'm so so tired. I feel like my friends are trying to avoid me and it's like they don't want to hang out. They won't tell me anything anymore, yet I will change if I'm in the wrong. I'm conflicted my friend is dating another friends ex who is terrible and is just being weird. I don't trust that guy she likes and I don't want to tell her cause she would be mad. And those two the friend and the friend who dating her ex I really care for. I just don't want to feel like a burden to my friends I wish they would take. My grades have been shit I've been so tired and forgetful.