Rant #2318

My younger brother recently got into nationals for some invention thing, and he even has the potential for a scholarship if he wins. Although, he has to travel to Michigan to participate, and my parents couldnt agree less for him to go. I don't want to sound like a brat when I say this, but I'm jealous. For four years straight, I've recieved potential scholarship opportunities multiple times throughout my school years, and each of them offered a path on law or nursing. I've always wanted to be a nurse or a lawyer. I've been deemed the best of the debate team at my academy, and I've studied law & nursing for God knows how long. The only downside of the scholarship was that they required me to go out of state. My parents outright refused everytime. I get if it was because of money, but to accept my brother's travels over mine? My depression has only gotten worse & I think the world would be better off if I was dead. That way, all of these stupid feelings would dissappear along with me.