Rant #2314

Im not in a great point in my life right now and have already tried multiple times to kill myself, even though its hard to admit to people just typing it out is enough right now, I dont feel welcome in my own home and constantly get made fun of either online or in public environments, I also constantly feel like a burden and feel the need to isolate myself from others, my own family has said to my face before that they hate me and they did this after I told them I was depressed and suicidal