Rant #2297

my heart feels so heavy its almost been a year since i started uni im studying ELT for being a teacher but i cant do anything right i havent done any uni experiences properly i dont really have friends to hangout even if i used to have it last period i still felt so frustrated, and this night the feeling came again that im so damn alien oblivious alienated pitied why cant i have a proper life proper social experiences im at uni im 19yo i thought itdve changed i thought it was just my highschool experience but its continuing it feels so jarring so heavy in my heart