Rant #2293

I feel so alone. im just 13 and dad passed away year ago, then this year my grandma will die? im done it feels like im losing everyone. when i was younger there was a bit of abuse in my family, also got szually assaulted in school which caused me the constant fear of boys i couldnt even get to school i was in 1th grade everythings more hard when my mom is emotionally abusive and doesnt care aslong no one sees im struggling. I got depression and mental issues, which made her even more mad to me like its my fault. how did i deserve such a life? i feel pressured to be perfect by my mom, if i dont do school perfectly to her she will threaten me, tells me im disable crazy and more. i dont think i want to live like this no more. no escape. no one understands me, i hope someday i will get better and get away from my mom. if anyones reading this, your not alone 💕