Rant #2263

i realized im the one creating the gap between me and my parents. i dont know what to do anymore. i can see how my problems are affecting them i hate myself every time i cry in front of them. i feel so guilty for blaming them for so long and i realize that i wouldnt know what to do if i had to deal with me either. i feel so guilty i cant even face them. i hate myself so much because ive been so ungrateful to them when they are the best parents i could ask for. i feel even worse when they tell me i have nothing to feel sorry for because how could i be so horrible to them and they don't even need me to be sorry?