Rant #2257

nobody really cares about me. i can't really blame them, i struggle to reach out to people or i just seem to bug people too much to be worth anyone's time. im so lonely but i don't want to tell my friends because we're so distant now it's not like they'd actually care anyway. i just wish someone truly knew me but i don't want people to know me deeply because im terrible. im lonely to the point i made up a person in my head who i fantasize about when i need companionship or someone to talk to. i'm so pathetic. i don't think any of my friends would even notice if i disappeared