every morning feels so suffocating. i have to act like im fine and act multiple acts at once just to be heard.. i feel like no one actually cares. im in love with this girl but cant be with her due to family problems and religon. i know she likes me back but i cant bring myself to hurt my family and break my beliefs like that. everday i try making it through the day while doing well in school. i try my very best to be good enough for EVERYONE but NO ONE cares.. i always come home to me getting shouted at for the smallest things and i dont know how to express myself anymore when all ive ever known my whole life is to bottle eveything up. i cant even get peace at night when i sleep cause all i do is overthink and hear voices in my head telling me stuff like, "you'll never be good enough" "this is why mom loves your siblings more" "why cant you eat less?" IT HURTS.. everyday feels like i js need to survive through all of this. i just want to run away and my alone.