Rant #2246

I keep messing up, the more I try not to be a burden-the more problems I create for other people to solve. I try to be perfect, then I don't do it right. Then I feel ashamed and feel like crying. Even if the other person tells me it's okay, I just can't accept that my mistakes don't have a cost. I bet they are secretly angry at me. I feel bad for getting it wrong. I self loathe a lot, fucking up your own shit is not as hurtful as someone else's. I swallow it all back in, I don't know any different.