Rant #2233

I haven't felt this lonely since covid, when everyone was in quarantine. no one hanging out. i just don't feel connected to anybody. I'm losing my motivation for just waking up. each day is so depressing. i don't even miss my ex anymore. i don't have feelings for the boy i was just kissing last weekend. no one takes me serious enough, that is why i feel lonely. i thought i had a chance with 9 but it's clear he doesn't think about me. 9 is literally texting another girl, i bet he texts first, compliments her, watches her in the hallway. everything you could want from a boy. i kiss him and no reciprocation. no effort. i feel like a fool, i don't even think i have feelings towards him, as our lips touched. i wasn't even happy. i didn't even think about my ex either that moment. life has been so bad towards me, i have no feelings towards anything at this point. i just want a person who i can connect with so deeply, one i can be myself around, one where i can tell my problems without making