Rant #2222

I guess I miss my bsf. She's super busy with life now which i get and totally respect she has school and a job whereas I study from home. We're in 2 different places in life right now so I never expect her to be there at my every whim but sometimes I really miss her and I feel a little unheard?? Like I avoid opening our messages and scrolling up because it looks like im talking to myself with all the unseen messages I've sent her over the past few weeks. She does text me but everything I say goes unheard as she says she'll come back to it later which again i totally understand since shes busy and honestly a lot of what I say to her is just mumble jumble about my day that I wanted to say to someone, it isnt ever really important unless I say so. Regardless of all this I do sometimes feel a bit left behind as I know 100% she spends a lot of her time with her new boyfriend and she told me before dating him that she'd never be one of those ppl who choose bf>friend but it looks like she is.