Rant #2209

I cant help but feel that I am a prisoner of my own mind. To say I have obsessed over thinking about the neglect or double-standards our relationship was is an understatement. I think about u everyday..depending on how u say it can have many different implications.. some violent, hostile, others desperate, depressive, and everything in between. Its unfortunate when ur in a relationship w/ someone that really doesnt want the same things as u. Someone that doesnt care to give effort where u ask for. I think about how I needed u in ways that never were seen that never were ever offered or on the table b/c it was always about u. And yet still even if I were to find out u died it would be a cold dish of revenge that I craved for so long but now would be hard to swallow. I guess thats why they say revenge is a dish best served cold b/c is there really a satisfying win?..because really this wouldnt of been if u were just there for us...