I stopped being nice to my best friend. It happened. She reached the point where I can’t keep forgetting all the times I’ve gotten hurt and it’ll never be the same and now I too will treat her how I treat my parents. She’s so aggressive. No matter what I do I’m always in the wrong. She won’t communicate and I’m so tired of asking, because I know I’ll just continue getting hurt. To actually get better I have to not lean into her hurt anymore, that’s what actual self love would be. But I’m worried about her. She keeps using not doing well as an excuse to treat people like this. I don’t like myself anymore. When people say they love me or I’m a good friend I find it hard to believe. I feel like I needed to do something differently at some point. But I tried. And I usually try to manage how angry I get at people. I tried, I think.