Rant #2193

Sometimes I feel I am not build for this world. No matter how hard I try I keep getting knocked down. Sweetest Person You'll every meet and stay seeing the good in the worst of people. Even a person I have kids by at mentally abuse me. I feel alone. Expects me to vent to him to shut me down, Vent to my sibling or anyone its an issue. Emotion building up I can't escape. No safe space. Try not to let my kids see me crack but the hurt be too much. KIds mom mom on top of arguing with their dad and been push to aside.... Screaming and yelling at everyone than I cry because why am I frustrated with my kids..... than Bills, bils bills. I work my butt off and like still stress. No one care I carry all the weight. Sometimes I wish I can leave this earth, but I tell myself everyday my kids need me. and I need them. I am just walking on eggshells. I can't vent or express. choose not to tolerate people behavior for me to get more hurt. Life is not fair..