Rant #2191

A mom and partner I been with for years. Sometimes I wish I wasn't this sweetheart kind of person. Caught boyfriend telling 2 other girls he loves them. Been together for years share kids, recently got back together FOR IT TO BE THE SAME! Confronted it, vs acknowledging how I feel told me I am not allowed to see his phone anymore. Then treating me like I did something wrong. Then got fed up broke down crying. Always expect me to initiate everything, sex, outing etc. As I watch him call and ask someone what we doing today as I am here in his face crying telling him how I feel to be saying I am nagging and talking about females. I work from home, take care of kids, get the dress, and handle an 11 month. Moment I take a rest its a problem. Moment I say I need a break "Oh I am a weak mom" I give the most love to my kids and boyfriend. I make sure everyone is Okay, take nothing but all the loads. I am just angry inside. I dont try to yell and scream, Than make me seem like im crazy. Alone