I feel like I'm not cut out to be an adult. I feel like I'm falling behind everyone else. I finally started a real adult job and I'm miserable. My body is sore and my mind is tired. I cant keep up with the people who've worked there for years. I know they don't expect me to just yet but I cant help but feel like we aren't even equals. That im just a kid cosplaying the responsibility of an adult. Which I kinda am... I still live with my mom and I don't pay rent just yet. With this job I'm going to start to but it keeps flashing in my mind that I'm going to do this forever. Adulthood feels so stunted. You work, live in pain and then you die. I'm not ready to be stunted, I want more time. I don't want to be in more pain, I don't want to do this forever.