I am so lonely. So freaking lonely. I have one close and friend I can't even see her because her mother hates me, and I went through the same thing with someone else who could've been close, but her mother hates me too, all because I'm queer. I'm moving soon so I'm not sure if I'll ever see either of them again. I wish I had a partner, I wish I've had at least one in my life, but all I've ever gotten was one kiss from a girl who treated me badly years ago. I wish I had friends I could actually meet and hang out with. I wish I had guy friends, I want to have one so badly but for some reason it's harder to befriend them. I wish I could cry over this stuff but none of the tears make it past my eyes. I find it funny how I'm going through all this and suddenly, a lone mockingbird is singing for a mate to come their way at nearly 2 am, just as lonely and desperate as I am. God this sucks.