Rant #2126

I wanna please people and I can't, I always end up using them, I don't want you use them, I want them to rely on me, I wanna be the one they come too, I don't care how they treat me other than that, I just don't want to use my friends, I keep asking for help and stuff and they almost never do, they probably hate me, one of them implied that I should have no friends at all. I would say I don't care if I'm liked but i like treating others kindly. They always end up pulling away, I know I'm socialy awkward but they need to grow up. I try to be as mature as possible and I never can, they always see me as someone to take care of, and I feel really bad for it, I think I should start pulling away, I'm not a small child I can do fine. But please let me help you if you need it