Rant #2116

I think they're sick of me. Every time, I'm online, they go offline. Do they even like me anymore? Am I funny? Maybe I'm just insecure and reading too much into this... I swear they're sick of me tho. I'm so sure they don't want to even hang out anymore, I don't like this feeling of insecurity. I remember every single little nickname I gave a friend of mine, they were more talkative back then and actually enjoyed my company, now it feels like they're always on edge, I wish they would just talk to me. I can change, I swear. I will change if it means I'll be liked. I always have, always did, I change, change, change just so someone will look my way. It's my fault. It's all my fault. Am i so lame that not even online friends want to talk to me? I'm just tired, I'm so deeply tired. I want to talk to someone, I want to so bad, please don't leave me alone. Loneliness is the worst punishment. please, don't leave me and just talk to me, I don't want to be here alone with my thoughts, please...