Rant #2106

Yesterday someone that I use to drink w/ told me that someone that I dated for a month died...was kinda shocked but not really. The dude had issues had trauma he wanted to drink away... He did lots of drugs I can only guess that he died of an OD...I dont really feel bad about it either aside from the unhealed trauma. He wasent very nice to me during the time I was around him...he slept w/ someone on my birthday when we were together..he always said, "I hate u". He liked D4VD...he asked if I knew the name before any of this shit blew up with the case (7 years back)...kinda fucked up...not enough to elicit any emotions..the voices in my head told me he died a few months back but they lie alot so I was like w.e...the dude is a few years younger than me...I dont feel anything for the dude. At the time I was around him he would of gladly watched my demise if it was ever the time...so many ppl want to see murder..but then when its the bad ppl dying ppl wanna feel something...