I used the R word to my very special friend, I used his unique habits, and unusual liking against him, to formulate a conclusion that he could be a potential rpst , we've been talking for almost 3 months, he had past trust traumas and abandonment, I learned something, and was scared to the probability that he might be someone leading to that ledge, ( he hides his story, calls women Btchs and even know the black market that sells Rpst Content, he like real life documentary ) I had scrapped an uncomfortable topic and indiviual autonomy and I inhumanely degraded his own authory to live his own ways that is for his desires and inspiration, I did said it without considering the thought, he still hasn't blocked me, but I am nailed with great regret that wants me to correct things, but I'm afraid I might just make it all about me and own short comings, I want to hit the situation before it's already time-out, but how could I? now that trust and confidence are at stake or risk between us.