Rant #2069

I don't want to be the adult in my home anymore. I'm barely an adult but if I didn't force my mom to sleep or eat or leave the house she would have rotted away by now. She has a therapist and it's to the point if I don't remind and force her to go, she just doesn't. She doesn't take her meds without me forcing her. The worst part is, I suffer the exact same way. I am clinically depressed to the point I've had multiple attempts in the last few years and yet I am the only thing keeping my mom alive. I'm always terrified that when I go to see my dad for a weekend, Ill come back to her body. I'm tired. I'm so damn exhausted. I can barely have basic hygiene or eat more than a snack a day but if I don't make every meal for her, she won't eat and that can be deadly because of her diabetes. She doesn't go to the store without me getting on her ass about it. She doesn't have hobbies or friends aside from being high to the point of blacking out. I'm just tired.