Rant #2067

i genuinely don’t know what to do and honestly i think junior year gotta be my worst year. Sure i had mo friend group break ups (which is good!!) but i feel like im losing myself mentally and physically. My time management is so bad to the point i don’t even know what to do, i always have random urges to be productive but always ended up not doing anything. I literally hate myself for it because i know this year is the most important year ever and i can’t bring myself to work hard or just be productive . im genuinely considering taking a gap year off, i dont know what i want to be in the future and if im in the same state like this next year i dont even know what to do. does life get better after 17? should i suffer more in this endless cycle?