Rant #2065

it hurts to remember everyone who will just think i ghosted them oh wait they'll forget me like everyone else i am nothing but a person online i give no warmth i give no ideas i drag them through my problems then shut down i make jokes about serious things i am horrible i am terrible i want to do it tonight i might do it tonight but im scared of the pain im scared they will hate me i care about my reputation so much i dont know why mom dad i know you wont see this but im sorry im sorry i cant live up your expectations im a waste of space i know