Rant #2046

I honestly don’t even know how to process this. I’m just frustrated. I was there in real life, present, giving attention, care, and affection. We spent time together, built something that actually felt real, and shared moments that meant something to me. And somehow, that still wasn’t enough. What really gets me is that I lost to something that only exists online. Someone she met on Twitter, someone she has never even seen in real life. I get that feelings aren’t always logical, but it’s hard not to feel like this is unfair. Right now I’m not even sad, I’m just angry. Angry because I showed up, I was real, and in the end that didn’t matter the way I thought it would How the hell do you trade someone real someone who’s there for you, who gives you care, affection, and love for someone you met on Twitter and have never even seen in real life?????