Rant #2043

This is my first time on a site like this, and I just wanted to feel heard and gain feedback. Everyday I go to school (try to) and then go home. School is dreadful, my parents just say that it is normal however I always feel judged and stared at. I feel like I am chopped and that I have niche interests that nobody cares about. Anytime I talk to someone I feel dismissed unless it is something that they want to talk about, I play games online with school friends but to what reason? In society for me, people need to meet a certain threshold in appearances in order to make it. I have tried to end it in the past, I have diagnosed severe depression and anxiety. I quit seeing a therapist around a year and a half ago because I was getting better until recently... Recently I have been skipping school by faking sick and throwing up due to it, my stomach hurts all the time and I skip my meds thinking I do not need them. I will post a follow up after this message.