Rant #2037

I don't want to assume the worst of my father but I've always disliked him. He has treated my mother horribly for the past 5 or so years atleast to the point I've noticed. But beside that point he's been much more touchy with me and calling me odd petnames, it came out of the blue but it feels like he's looking at me differently, I feel uncomfortable and I don't want to assume it but I'm really hoping atp it's just paranoia and that Its not true but I think that he is looking at me in a way a father shouldn't look at a son. and by recently I mean like less than 2 days ago, he randomly comes in my room to hug and kiss me or he hugs me from behind while I do something, I don't know it's just making me really scared and uncomfortable. I have been Sexually assaulted in the past and don't want to assume that's something he would do but I'm very horribly afraid and have been trying to avoid him because of his touchiness