Rant #2018

Feeling very depressed. The other day my mother woke up in the middle of the night because she had. A nightmare, I heard her rush to my sister's room and cry to her how she was so worried about her commiting suicide when I'm the one who's been at risk and passively suicidal for the last 6 years almost. I felt so empty that night, I tried ignoring it but it just hurt a whole lot, my parents keep saying I'm the favorite but it's clear they care more about my sister's well being than about mine. Thought back to it because I'm having a big sad. Thought sharing it would help a little.