I fucking hate being disabled and how it bleeds into every part of my life. I feel like I'm losing so many friendships because I can't do everything the way I want to anymore, and then I get to watch people leave me behind. What's worse is when people start doing activities that I've been suggesting for months the moment I can't participate in them. They claim to be my friends but wouldn't they make more of an effort if they were? Wouldn't they take at least one opportunity to hang out with me? I would jump at an opportunity to hang out with them, but I barely get the chance. And even if I push myself to the point of pain just to be included, it doesn't matter. I just have to hurt and be alone.
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