Rant #2005

i cant bring myself to care about anything in my life anymore. i went from a 4.0 gpa high achiever to skipping all my lectures and barely doing anything for my clubs and research labs. i feel like i should care more but all i wish for now is to die in my goddamn sleep. no one fucking gets it and i dont want to burden my friends so all i have in my fucking stupid life is shouting in the void. i want to be a normal college student i want to have a girlfriend i want my parents to love me i want to be happy and not want to kill myself every fucking day i jus twish i was never born at all.