Rant #2001

I think what was worse than the diagnosis was the knowledge that I will likely be medicated for the rest of my life, and even then I still have depressive episodes. I was 12 when first medicated. I don’t fully know a life without meds. And I want so desperately to have kids and a family only day, but how can I have kids knowing I could pass this on to them? How can I have a family and make my significant other or kids worry about my mental state because it will never be normal. Stability only lasts so long for me, and I can’t imagine putting someone through that.