Rant #1987

i consider myself to be socially adept in life, which means having friends and therefore having to keep up with them on social media. but lately i feel so burnt out from everyone i just want to pause everything in time, lay in bed and do nothing but eat sleep and play video games, unpause and then go back to daily life like nothing happened. even scrolling is exhausting - i see an ad every 2 videos on tiktok or instagram and twitter's full of bullshit.and having to see everyone's performance on social media is so stupid to me. i know that social media is and always will be a performance but even so i feel so tired seeing people be fake for the sake of good appearances. all i want is for this whole world to disappear. no amount of partying i do feels good, i dont like anyone including myself, and i want this all to be over one day.