Rant #1985

Got into a relationship about 17 or 18 years ago. It ended up being a long distance because they had family issues and needed to move. The relationship wasn't perfect. But they would do things to show that I was important to them when they could. But there were times I would get ignored. I would feel insecure, betrayed, angry. And when they respond, needing comfort from their own bad situation, I'd just still be mad. I broke up about 10 years ago now. And after a year, I thought I got over it. And for several years I just fully blamed them for everything going wrong. But over the years, I continued reflecting on myself, improving, becoming more kind, patient, and trusting. It's hard and still in progress. I finally admitted to myself that I was the problem. 3 years ago, I reached out, apologized, and we became friends. We get along a lot better now. They are engaged and I was fine with that. I visited last year and started having dreams about us getting back together. I want them back.