Rant #1983

i hate this world so much. when i was openly radqueer i was so much happier and stress-free. for those who don't know radqueer just means radical queer, accepting of literally everyone. because i actually try to love and support people who are misunderstood like me. but i decided i want to try and make a career online, so i deleted all of my rq accounts, messages, no traces left. and i'm so fucking miserable. i literally want to die. those spaces were SO kind, so loving, so positive, actually offering help and advice, no trolling or ragebaiting or being mean to others (at least the spaces i was in).. now i'm in normie spaces and i hate it. everyone is so rude and cruel, making fun of others and mocking people openly, i don't understand? how do people live like this? i want to go back but i don't want to jeopardize my safety and possible career.. fuck my life dude. i hope i die soon.