Rant #1981

Oh ya adding to the same topic my sister thinks they are coming for an engagement! She is so resentful towards me like as if I wanted THIS! HIW IS THIS MY FAULT!! She's scared that she won't get married and only I will...she doesn't even want to stand with me...how I'm getting forced to say yes..it hurts when she does like that since she is my elder sister after all.. trears are forming in my eyes while I write this... oh ya and get this my dad wants to marry me and my sister together! We have a FREAKING 4 YRS AGE GAP. I nor my sister want to do the marriage together... now my sister is planning to go to another city than be there when the dude and his family come...I told her I wanted her to be there since I needed my sister and couldn't do it .... really what a broken family we are.. I loose the will to live all the time because of this, I loose any ambitious I get when I start thinking so most of the time I just don't think....it doesn't feel great though