Rant #1973

It’s upsetting that they left me. They left me for good. I feel like I’ve lost everything even though I’ve still got good people on my side. It’s so hard to let go because it was years of deep relationships within that group and I did it to myself. Now I only feel like I’m bringing down those who are still there for me. God I’m hopeless and I wish I wasn’t like myself. I feel like I’m at the edge of a cliff already, I’m not even scared of leaving anymore. But then again if I leave, I’d upset those that been with me through my rough days. Then I’d be selfish. I don’t know what to do anymore and I feel lost. I’ve lost it all.