Rant #1969

Your birthday is coming up in a few days. I asked what your plans were, and you told me that you were going to hang out with your friend after work before going out to dinner with your family. And tbh, I could help but feel a pang of jealousy that you were going to hang out with another friend instead of me. From a logical standpoint it makes sense, you both have been friends for almost a decade so wanting to hang out with them on your birthday isn't a weird concept. In fact it's perfectly natural. While, we've only known each other a couple of months and only talk at work or online. I guess, I just really wish I could be a part of that inner circle ya know? I want to know you like she does, but that takes time. I just...click with you, and I'm trying to figure out if you clicked with me too? Idk, it's like one moment it feels like we're complete strangers, and the next, it's like we're chatting like we've been friends for ages. It's so confusing, and I just wish things were clearer...