Rant #1918

This is kind of a shitty week. It was my birthday Sunday, and my parents kind of forgot a little, but then remembered, and a lot of friends didn't remember either. Sometimes I feel fucking invisible to people, like I mean nothing, and I'm just a backup or the fat friend there for them to take their emotions out on. Speaking of which, my body dysphoria is getting so fucking bad, and I hate my body, and I'm genuinely trying to become anorexic because why am I so fat? Along with one of my only friends at my new school ditched me to hang out with some other people because she wants to make her way into the theater department, and she just never tries to include me or help me make friends or fit in; she's kind of a shitty friend. no one really talks to me at my new school, liam does, though. hes super nice and i cant tell if i like him or not because hes religious and i already have enough trauma, not to mention that shitty friend is his stepsister.