Rant #1914

I hate my mother so much , I'm not even gonna lie anymore , I'll be happy is she dies . She keep rubbing her paranoia onto me , doesn't let me do anything , saying the world is bad so I can't go outside and then compare me with other girls who go outside and achieve big saying they are so brave courageous and what not . But I can't even step out to the front yard without her yelling at me for being "outside". She's horrible . Then she says, "What am I not letting you do ? You have everything and still complain." What tf is she talking about? I have nothing . Nothing to my name . I don't even know the address of the house we are living in , that's how she is isolating me from the world . I'm already depressed as it is and now she says is I don't get a job in 6 months she will marry me off and "get rid of me". She thinks she is doing something noble by doing that . I don't want to be controlled by someone my whole life. I might just kill myself If I don't get a job , it's much better .