Rant #1907

it's just no one talks to me anymore. like yeah, most of them have REAL lives and are a lot older than me and aren't chuds, but it's lonely. I have classmates, sure, but I don't see them on the weekends or after school. I don't have anyone to talk to at home except for one irl friend. Ive had online friends for awhile and it's had it's ups and downs but I think rn its a very down. best friend hasn't replied in three weeks, good friend said "what now" when I tried to talk to them, and all my other friends have either changed or don't text me anymore. my very good friend Ava has turned.. weird. I love her, but damn, why do you hate on everyone? she fucking loves ragebaitinf. and my best BEST friend v, she talks to me but she's a kinda distant person- and I don't BLAME her for that, she has issues personally but it hurts man. I don't think I'm annoying or a bad person, so why am I ignored? everything went bad when I started cutting. I'm like 12 and I'm already doomed for life. fml man