me and my cousin have similar experiences with having toxic mothers. But when me, her, and my grandmother were in the kitchen, she was talking about those experiences with her. Our grandmother showed sympathy and said things like "its not your fault" and how shes strong and how shes almost there from moving out and how our passed grandfather would be proud of her. And i wish that my mom didnt have such a good reputation with my dads side of the family so they'd say those things to me. Its disgusting and jealousy but I just feel like a weak and lazy person compared to my YOUNGER cousin, hearing her talk about her life made my issues feel so small. I just wanna feel proud of myself and like i'm on my way to "escaping" my mother. But everyone thinks shes so nice. I hate the way i feel it makes me hate myself sm. Idk how to shake this feeling.