Rant #1901

I dont understand anything, I dont know anything and it pains me no one understands how i feel no one knows, everyone thinks im fine and its so exhausting im only young yet I feel so much, I dont feel real anymore Idk if I want to continue trying idk if I should continue, idk if I should end things, I want to know the truth the lies the everything, I want TO KNOW im driven by curiosity im driven by anger by saddness by rage, NO ONE is real no one is actually here its just me so why am I trying so hard for these fake people im too nervous I dont know if theyre real or not I feel like im going crazy, only me and my boyfriend feel real, im so tired I dont know anymore I cant tell the difference im dying inside I want to end things I WANT TO know I need to know, I should do it I need to I need to know the truth I need to or I wont be able to handle the lies any longer, I cant do this anymore no one will tell me anything I dont know if anything is real, I need help but I cant get it.