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Ive started hatinf myself again. I dont understand why, why am I like this again when I was fine for so long. I made friends, GOOD friends, I started dating, but for some reason, everything came crashinf down harder, even harder than the first time, I hate it, SO FUCKIN BAD. I shouldnt have to go back to this shit show, to this area where I feel so bad, where im empty and hollow and shitty, where it feels like theres a blackhole where my heart should be and it's suckinf up all my happinesss faster than I can make more, i hate it so much, so bad. I dont wanna barely eat, I dont wanna shut them out, I dont wanna be a shell of who I used to be, I dont wannna hide, I dont wanna hurt myself again.