I noticed a pattern with my friendships, everytime I make new friends it's hard to keep them, because I get jealous to easily I never do anything rash or act out on my jealousy, I stay silent and I wait it out hoping the feeling will go away, but it doesn't. Whenever my friends behind to hang out with others, or anything mutuals we share I get so sad and angry and a bunch of mixed emotions, so I begin to push myself away, ignoring any pleas if they contact me out of concern and in the end I leave and drop them without explanation bc I'm scared they'll leave me first even when they reassure me, I could never know if they are being truthful or not. This same situation is happening again, but this time I trying to handle it a little differently, I wanna try to keep talking to them. I wondered if I endure these negative emotions in three background and still be around everything will be fine.