Sometimes I hate myself. I feel like I am constantly failing and that I'll never be good enough for anyone and that I will start losing people in my life. Worst part is, the next day I feel totally fine. I usually get this way at night. I mess up all the time. Make the same mistakes over and over again. I regret oversharing with people but I end up doing it anyway because I can't keep my fucking mouth shut. I hate acting all pathetic and "oh poor me" because my home life and life in general isn't even that bad so I feel really pathetic and stupid. And I am so incredibly sensitive and apparently it's easy to read my emotions. It pisses me off. I hate feeling so much all the time. I'm either on the higher end of the scale or the lower end. I lowkey wanna hurt myself sometimes to like desensitize myself so I can hide my emotions better. Problem is that I don't think physical pain is supposed to do that. But my brain thinks otherwise.