'Dad' you are a terrible father. I only have several good memories of you, and I'm sure there was manipulative energy in those good memories. The rest of my memories of you are terrible. You are a manipulative, gaslighting asshole! I have forgiven you, but I have not forgotten a thing. I gave you one more chance. You went to church and talked to a pastor. You are saying the right words. You let me tell the truth about you to your face, and you told me some truths. But then you are now trying to shift all the blame on the nasty shit you did on your dead mother / dead wife. Grandma was never in the room when you emotionally and sexually abused me! Mom had her part. She could have protected me and brother more, but that shouldn't have given you the right to abuse your children. I have given you several chances to admit to your part in fucking me up. Instead you want to throw blame at the dead women in your life. Shame on you. I still forgive you, but I am done.