Anonymous
Im cutting myself again after a long clean streak. I'm failing my classes, falling behind on everything else. I cant kill myself though and it kinda sucks. I have a job that may struggle if I go, I have a dog that needs taken care of, and my partner and friends need stability too. Im kinda mad I missed my chance, but alas. Its the first time blood is being drawn too, which is cool. Now I know logically taking the easy way out would disappoint me, but its really hard right now. I don't know how many more it do be like that's I got left. No one will help me either haha. My schools mental health people don't find I'm in an active crisis. I don't know who I should turn to. I don't know what to do. I wanna tell someone that Im cutting so maybe MAYBE I can be hugged or something but it'll just be soooo awkward afterwards. I cannot kill myself but I want to so badly. So what if my fictional stories are never told? At least I wouldn't be in pain. Im so tired of this. I really am.