i lost the man i love. it was me who walked away and i really thought i was doing the right think but now he's not mine anymore. i guess this part of me always thought i could have him for myself... he loved me a lot, i know that. we were in a relationship and i was the one who ended things, it was me who walked away so why does it still hurt so darn much? that girls looks so sweet that i cant even bring myself to hate her. i love him, i love him so fucking much but i have to pretend to be happy for him. i thought it wouldnt work out cuz he is from a diff religion but honestly rn i dont give a fuck- all i can think of is him and everyday i yearn for him. i love him like he painted the sky blue- without him i cant fucking BREATHE, all of me yearns for him. i will never be able to love someone the way i loved him. everything fucking hurts. i miss him, i miss him so fucking much. but hes not mine anymore... he'll always be my first priority, now it seems like i dont even matter to him...