Rant #1830

I feel really worthless lately. I feel really alone in it and the voice just gets louder every day. I genuinely hate myself, and it's starting to affect my hygiene, I know people are going to say, "just get help!" but if i told someone, they'd just worry, and i feel so worthless i would just hate myself more if someone spent their time on me. I feel a bit suicidal but I'm way too scared of anything dangerous that the chances of me gathering the courage are slim to none. This just makes me feel more stuck, i feel there's no escape.