i don't feel good about myself at all. its like i used to be something, but im astronomically not good at anything. i grew up what is supposed to be called normal. i cant understand it. i know that there are seasonal depressions and shit but tmamn this has been so.. long. feels like decades have passed and im fucking done with myself. i want to prove myself right on something positive and not prove my overthinking skills again. i repeat everytime i predicted that someone would leave me because i had nothing on the fucking table. i FUCKING hate everyone. FUCK YOU TO ALL 20+ PEOPLE IN ALL 4 SECTIONS OF MY BATCH LEVEL IN SCHOOL. YOU ALL HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHT TO JUDGE MY LIFESTYLE NOW. YOU WANTED THIS, SO FUCKING TAKE IT. I LOST FRIENDS TIME AND AGAIN AND YOU STILL USE ME FOR FUCKING ENTERTAINMENT. FUCK ALL OF YOU AND YOUR SHIT. IM NOT SOME PUPPY ON TELEVISION TO BE JUDGED. YOU HAVE NO EMPATHY AND WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WITHOUT IT. YOU ALL GREW UP SHITTING AND SHITTING. DIE ALL OF YOU DIE